As part of the healing I am doing right now, after the break up of my relationship with Andy, I have been seeing a counselor for an hour once a week. It is really good work I am doing there and I wanted to share a little part of my journey back to myself with you here.
I am a feelings person. I have very strong, and at times overwhelming feelings. In the past (and of course even now) the intensity of my feelings have stopped me from functioning as my true self. I also realise that I have found it very difficult to express 'negative feelings' like anger, dislike, dissatisfaction, hurt and sadness. At my session last week my counselor asked me to run my hands through a basket of pebbles and chose the one that felt, to me, like those stored feelings.
This is the pebble I chose. She then asked me where in my body I was carrying it, this hard rock of bad feelings. I placed the stone, where I felt it, on my diaphragm underneath my rib cage. My counselor gently let me know that I needed to do something about that hard little rock before it turned into something more serious and more physical.
She then gave me home work of making an art work of what 'feelings' are for me.
The whole complete circle.
Making this drawing was so eye opening for me and I realised so many things about my feelings.